Modjadji Writer

I never imagined that I would be here,
Lying in a hospital bed, staring at the ceiling,
Listening to machines and silence at the same time.
Life has a way of forcing you to pause when you’ve been moving too fast,
Carrying too much, and ignoring the quiet cries of your own body.
Ulcers may sound like a small thing to some people,
But the pain…
The discomfort…
The sleepless nights…
It’s something I wouldn’t wish on anyone.
For a long time,
I kept going like everything was okay.
Smiling outside, while inside my body was slowly breaking down.
Stress, worries, overthinking, skipping meals, pushing through pain
I thought I was being strong. But now I realize…
Strength is also knowing when to rest,
When to stop, and when to take care of yourself.
Being here has humbled me.
It has made me reflect on life in a way I never did before.
When you’re lying here, you start to think about everything
The people you love, the things you’ve been through,
The battles you’ve fought silently,
And the ones you’re still fighting.
You realize how fragile life really is,
And how important your health is.
Because without it, everything else becomes meaningless.
The pain has been overwhelming at times,
But what has kept me going is the love I’ve received.
The messages, the calls, the prayers, the people checking up on me
It means more than I can ever put into words.
In moments like this, you see who truly cares,
Who stands with you even when you’re not at your best.
To anyone out there who is going through something silently
Please, don’t ignore your body.
Don’t ignore the signs.
Take care of yourself.
Rest when you need to.
Speak up when something doesn’t feel right.
Your health is not something to gamble with.
Right now, I’m taking it one day at a time.
Healing is not instant,
But I believe I’ll come out of this stronger,
Wiser, and more aware of myself.
This experience has changed me
It has taught me to slow down, to listen,
And to appreciate the simple gift of being okay.
Thank you to everyone who has been there for me,
Even in the smallest way.
Your kindness has been my strength during one of my weakest moments.
I’m not fully okay yet… but I’m getting there. And for now, that’s enough. ❤️

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