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Yesterday we celebrated my golden girl’s golden birthday and her entry into double digits. I looked at her last night and thought “I’ve been a MOM for TEN years” and I feel like I’m just growing into it.

I wrote her letters and notes for her birthday, but I wanted to write something different here.

To 24-year-old Megan,

You’re right, you are definitely not ready for this. You don’t know yet how much growth is left for you, and that this little girl is going to break you open in ways you never thought possible, or at least never dared to explore. She’ll push you far and make you reexamine everything you think you know. You won’t get a choice, you have to peek into those dark corners and heal for her and yourself. She’s going to fill your heart with so much love that you’ll finally know what it feels like to love someone so deeply it hurts. You’ll finally learn what it feels like to love yourself.

She will change you. You won’t always like it. She will challenge you. You’ll always be better for it. You might not always handle things the way you want or should. You’ll learn to apologize for something, even when you feel like it isn’t your fault (but that’s not the point). You’ll hold a life in your hands that you’ll quickly realize was never yours to control, but to mold as best as you can… while there’s a hole somewhere the sand is falling through and new sand is being added and someone keeps knocking your mold over. You do not get to decide who this person will be, but you have to take care of her and guide her and sometimes that’s frustrating. It’s also rewarding. One day she’ll tell you you’re cool or you’ll hear her bragging about your business to her friends and you’ll know that she loves you and you love her and no matter how hard it gets you’ll be okay if you just listen and apologize and giggle and cuddle and share and argue. As long as you’re there for her and doing your best, you’re doing great. No one really knows what they’re doing anyway.

Good luck, 34-year-old Megan

Happy Birthday to the girl that made us a family 10 years ago. I can’t wait to see who you become in 10 more years. 💖🥳

See you tonight at the MSA Annex! I’ll be there from 6-10pm and would love to see your faces 💖 see my stories for the map 😁