Ekpap

shoutout to on Twitch for permitting me to use him as a meme.

I sent this to my friends before posting b/c it’s a bit self-deprecating, half said to “Post it LMAO”, the other half said “Don’t you want to be hyping yourself up?”

I think both are true, but I also am big on two things:

HUMILITY - and I think being able to poke fun at one’s own shortcomings and improve upon them is a hallmark of improvement. aka: not to take oneself too seriously.

POETRY - Currently with Murder of King Mere, sales are experiencing a declining tail, and I feel I am a bit in the ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ phase of indie dev. Hype around release has cooled down, I’ve had my few viral moments (hoping more will come) and now I’m left with an overflowing email inbox with scammers asking for free keys and a lot of people looking for work asking me to share some of the bounty of MOKM (which is still only about 2.5 months of rent)... And a mix of absolute praise and people not clicking with the game at all.

Memes, to a certain extent, are poetry in their own memetic way. So ‘memeing’ my game like this seems appropriated given the current circumstances.

I’m almost at 1000 sales, which translates to about 5490 USD, but that’s for about a years worth of work +some more with marketing and bugfixes. I would need 10x where I’m currently at to even break even.

BUT, 1000 sales already puts me in the top 15% of steam games, which I am incredibly thankful for, but my goal is to make this game development thing sustainable, not just a portfolio piece.

At this point my best friend is to keep making more games, consistently improve upon Murder of King Mere with features and bugfixes, and TRY TRY TRY AGAIN. And maybe expand to more than just video games - but I am one person, and can only do so much.

PS; Regarding negative reviews b/c they take up so much space in my head... I’m improving this game constantly, most people absolutely love MOKM (95% positive on Steam) but other’s just do not seem to click with it. I am working on addressing the addressable aspects of the game.

MURDER OF KING MERE ON STEAM!! Link in bio