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You don’t actually want confidence, you want to stop overthinking. You want to stop hiding and stop waiting. Most women don’t realize that. They think they need to change first… but what they really want is to feel like themselves again.

Which one hit you the hardest?

If you’ve been following me for a while, you might’ve noticed that I used to take a lot of photos of myself. But it’s been almost 20 months since I last did. Today, that changed. I finally stepped back in front of the camera. My body looks so different now. I'm about 40 pounds heavier than before pregnancy but... I’m not trying to hide. I haven’t been avoiding photos out of shame. I’ve just been living.

Becoming a mom rocked my world. That first year was hard, overwhelming, beautiful, and messy. Now, I have so much fun with my little one and when I’m not with her, I’m working and serving all of you... and somewhere in the middle, I forgot to pause for me.

Today I finally gave myself space to breathe, to witness this version of me, and document how much my body has changed ... because I haven't hated myself through this transformation. Are my b***s now lopsided and does one ni**le point north and the other south? Yeah lol but there is nothing wrong with that - it’s just different now. And sure, I’ve gotten frustrated at times (when clothes don’t fit the same or when running around with Everly leaves me feeling out of shape) but even in those moments, I’ve loved my body through it all. No matter how badly society (and comparison mode) tried to convince me otherwise.

And I know my body will keep evolving, as I eventually stop breastfeeding, hopefully get more sleep, and carve out time and space to work out and focus on my health again. This is just a season, a chapter in my body’s story, and I wanted to capture it. Honestly and unapologetically.

If you’ve been feeling disconnected from your body or like you just “don’t have time” to get in front of the camera, I see you. I get it. Whether you’re learning to love your body again or just trying to find a moment to exist outside of everything else, you’re not alone. If you ever want to talk or carve out that space for yourself, I’d love to hold that space with you.