Almost nothing makes me more nervous than beautiful women, kinda like the saying "what I don't know I don't trust". In my early adulthood I adopted alcohol to be able to keep my composure and even cheifing in hopes of aligning myself socially with new women of all races sizes and kinds of course I found out the hard way that particular solution didn't work for me and I ended
up with some expensive habits. It also led to horrible experiences that had absolutely nothing to do with women like jail and Beef. I have major respect for women and some how that always seem to scare them away from me. And the ones that realize that genuine respect always try to take advantage of it. I don't see myself being successful in the entertainment world without being able to establish some communication or network with females that doesn't always involve money, sex or marriage "man it's crazy". Louis poor really effected my point of view due to the way that particular society is constructed. A lot of the times females that I was attracted to crushed me because I didn't meet financial expectations which made me want to grow up and mature faster with the sole purpose of making money fast to have a longterm relationship and be able to enjoy life the way that I pictured it to be. What a blow the reason that I say that is because when I returned home to California I found myself faced with an entire new challenge because it was no longer about financial status or appearance. I spent lots of time focusing on my appearance to the point of which I appeared confident, cocky and conceded on the outside when I was really shy and innocent and immature on the inside. To make matters even worse financial status or a stellar appearance didn't make you the it guy "crazy". Now it was about how confident, smart, and hardworking you were which seemed a lot easier than trying to figure out how to become a millionaire in my early teens. So the first thing that I did was dived into my books, next I applied hard work to the point of where I often found myself lost in the never-ending per suit of knowledge. I became so obsessed with learning new things and educating myself that I forgot to have fun and enjoy my junior high and high school years. One of the benefits of this was that lots of my peers were struggling with finding comprehensive rhythm with the teachers lesson plan. I was able to translate what the teacher or text book examples weren't able to in a simple way to where people my age understood it. My work ethic also helped me strive in athletic areas to the point of where not only did my dreams of being a millionaire seem within reach but I felt that if I stayed consistent at "sports" I could accomplish anything in that area of work and best of all it was fun. - Ron-Loc 805
08/19/2020
