T Block Studio

Lately there have been some really concerning events in our country and obviously the world.
I don’t really stay up on current events. I see what’s on social media at 3 AM when I am feeding the baby and I turn on the news sometimes in the morning for background noise while the baby naps. There have been shootings and stabbings and God only knows what else; and I’ve been feeling at a loss.
Part of me wanted to give up on social media and never turn on the news, but that would be ignorant. I don’t wanna be ignorant.
I don’t want to bury my head in the sand, but what can I do? I’ve been doing circles in my mind searching for answers that I don’t have….so I paused and got off the hamster wheel, I reflected on my own life for a moment.
I found that in my personal experience any poor decision I’ve made or bad behavior I’ve demonstrated can be connected back to a past trauma ( if you are not familiar with trauma response do yourself a favor and look into it. My best advice would be to start with the book “what happened to you” by Dr Bruce Perry)
So where am I going with this?
I don’t want to feel helpless. I don’t wanna be a part of the problem. If I can reach a small few who can reach a small few, maybe I can make a difference and to me that feels better than doing nothing.
As a mom and a sister and a friend I feel a responsibility to what I put out in the world. My dream is for you to be inspired by this post and make some changes for the greater good.
I was doing some self reflection and I’ve let life just happen lately and I have been surviving instead of driving. It’s time to get back into the driver seat of my life and be more intentional and present.
I made myself a little roadmap to navigate the journey. I would love to hear you share your thoughts. Good, bad or otherwise. Maybe we can create some positive movement together.

Ask about Plasma fibroblast!!!

Thankful Thursday

When designing your life we tend to look into what we want in the future, but all we have is the present. Yes, having sight for the future is important and to achieve goals we have to set them, but for this moment I want to be very present.

What do we have right now?

What are we grateful for right now?

I think it can be fulfilling to take a minute to think about what we are grateful for as opposed to what we don’t have in our present life.

Hmmm. really sit with this and take an inventory. There is the obvious for some of us, like our kids, our family, our health (if we have that), a roof over our head, food on the table, maybe our faith.

What else are we thankful for, who are we thankful for?

Do you have gratitude for yourself?

We live in a busy world run by so many distractions and responsibilities that we kind of miss the boat on right now!

This post is a bit of a stream of consciousness so bear with me, hopefully I don’t go back and edit, but anyway as I type these questions for you to answer I’m searching for my own answers…

I’m thankful for people in general because I just love diversity in its pure form, unapologetic and clean of any agendas. I love learning things on the fly from random occurrences, Such as coming across someone with something to share that I may never have stumbled across on my own. I'm grateful for friendships that withstand anything. I'm Grateful for mistakes that can be cured with a laugh. I'm grateful for sarcasm even though it gets a bad wrap ( yes it can be bad if used for bad but so can everything).

I'm most grateful for LOVE. It is the most fulfilling feeling to me, whether sharing love or receiving it, I love being in love (Josh is the love of my Life). When we operate out of love we are our best selves. All the best leaders, mentors, teachers preached about love and its importance, Jesus, Dr King, Gandhi to name a few.

So yes I’m most thankful for LOVE.

Thoughts

It’s funny because yesterday I posted about positivity and having a positive mindset and I don’t know if I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today or lack of sleep or what, but I’ve just been fighting off a flood of emotions and not the most positive thoughts maybe I’m peeling a layer of the onion and working something out…not sure but I guess it’s good that I have awareness of it.

It’s one thing to name it and want it. It’s another to put into action. Not that every minute of every day is full of positivity, but you definitely don’t want it full of negativity. My mind has been all over today and I have found it hard to ground last few days. I think I need to get back to a meditation practice. I’ve been walking, but I still need to focus my efforts with a bit more intention. Walking helps me process my thoughts. Being out in nature definitely feels better than sitting at home. I also think it’s good to allow the thoughts to come up and try not to over analyze them so much…maybe they need to just come up to be released.
Sometimes when life gets busy, I get tunnel vision and focus on finishing tasks and getting things done, keeping up with chores and I disassociate from my mental wellness. I suppose it’s a survival mechanism in place from my past. It’s not serving me and it’s something I will continue to have awareness around and seek out tools for recovery. One tool I used today was taking a gratitude inventory. I began visualizing the things in my life I’m grateful for and it helped lift me up. It’s a process and I will grant a little grace to myself while I work it out.