Divinely Healed

I’m back!!! Let’s get re-introduced!

Getting my business organized today!

I used to never do selfie’s- not because I’m not selfish. I’m super caring and compassionate. By because I feel insecure. I didn’t like how I looked. I had a hard time loving myself in my skin. But this year I have upped my confidence. Good morning To you from me!

Let’s see your selfie!

This was a low point for me. This is what post-partum depression looks like. Someone struggling may not show it on the outside like my elbow in these pics. But it hurts the same.

In February of 2018, I slipped on ice holding my 2 youngest kids. We will call this a mother's sacrifice. My elbow took the brunt of the fall. It was squishy. My elbow was squishy like a water balloon.

On top of this, I was already feeling too thin from not nourishing myself, and we were in the middle of buying a HOUSE. And I was in PP depression big time. I was drowning. Then I broke my elbow with 3 kids ages 4, 2, and 10 months. And I had surgery because I would have lost the function of my arm. I signed the documents 24 hours after surgery. (not sure if that's allowed after general anesthesia?)

During this time, I felt tired, overwhelmed, and alone. But I wasn't alone. So many people were helping us with the kids and the move. And getting the cast off my was freedom. I still couldn't brush my hair or put it up in a pony tail, or tie my shoes.. Try putting on a diaper of an active baby with one arm... not easy. But the shower, that was bliss. Oh that felt amazing. From that day, i slowly got movement back in my elbow. I remember, being able to touch my head for the first time since the break. And I really appreciated the love and care I received going to hand therapy.

Post-partum can hit at any time. And sometimes, it does go away... for a time. But it has to be dealt with and healed so it doesn't creep into other stages of motherhood. Or show up in physical ailments years later.

There is always a bright side and there are always miracles happening. I didn't always see them at that time. But they were there through the many angels who supported me and my family. This elbow accident taught me something. I learned that God doesn't abandon us. He is there. He sent people to me the moments I needed them.

It was this injury that helped me work out of the depression I was in. And to find the light again. You may be alone and in the depths of PP depression, anxiety, rage, sadness. But don't give up. Open up to someone. You can heal too.