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✨GRATITUDE✨

Feeling Gratitude lately that is so deep, so wide and so full that I can hardly stop crying. Becoming a mama has been soul filling.

John and I sat eating our first thanksgiving dinner as a family of 3 yesterday and we talked about what we are grateful for.

This year is incredibly obvious for us - we’re so grateful to hold in our arms this sweet sweet baby of ours. 😭😭😭

We actually sat crying while eating our thanksgiving dinner, which then turned to laughing because it was so funny that we were stuffing our mouths and crying at the same time. I bet you can imagine it. 😂

Also, I’m overwhelmingly grateful for John. He has been more than I dreamed as I watch him dive into fatherhood. Farah knows her daddy and it’s so sweet. 💕

I’d love to hear, what you are grateful for this year?

33 weeks ✨

I can’t believe we’re nearing the finish line of this pregnancy!!

I’ve been thinking so much lately on the loooong road to get here. All the ups and the downs and the in betweens. It was hard for so long, My infertility journey changed me and as hard as it was, I’m actually so grateful for it.

I look at pregnancy through rose colored glasses - every ache, pain and bout of nausea or heartburn is a privilege to experience.

I shared with a fellow infertility warrior the other day that I felt like I was truly soaking up every part of this opportunity to grow a human being. I’m not taking it lightly. I almost feel like I owe it to the girls who are still desperately navigating their infertility journey to enjoy every second of my pregnancy. I don’t take it for granted.

With that, I also share that I’m not immune to the fears that creep in from time to time. Just this past Saturday, I woke up feeling sad ( ) and had more “what if” thoughts than I could handle.

I was becoming overwhelmed with these “what if’s” and decided to stop and say a prayer of only gratitude for what actually is…

- I’m grateful for a baby girl who is currently moving in my belly
- I’m grateful for her hiccups she is having
- I’m grateful for the heartburn I’m having because I know it means baby is growing!
- I’m grateful for every. Single. Second. Of a heartbeat.

As I said this prayer of gratitude, I was flooded with emotions and overwhelmed knowing that my what if’s weren’t actually real. I chose instead to focus on what is and it was so powerful for me. It changed my attitude and it caused me to honor the 7 years of growth I have been through and to love my past self and reassure her that we’re finally here! We’re really doing it - making a human and it’s everything we ever imagined!