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Hold On To Me (feat. AHI) - YouTube Music

09/22/2024

Christian couples: do you bring the promise of living Christlike into your marriage?

Yesterday I was having a hard day.

For the last three years that I have been moving through perimenopause, my husband has been a saint! 😇 Especially the last three months of my journey, working to remove the heavy metal and balance the minerals that were causing psychosis. 🙈 I have found myself apologizing numerous times after I come back to myself and realize some of the things I have said or balls that I have dropped for dinners that I burned.😣

Yesterday, though, I was licking my wounds because I felt like he had been mean to me the night before. In fact, he had been. It happens sometimes. Some of the stress that was building up on his shoulders, ended up directed towards me.

Even though he had apologized, and I spent hours working out the extra anger energy on the kitchen, my heart was still tender and sad.

I was driving home and decided to put on YouTube Music. The very first song they offered was the one I posted here. I know it well. I love it! ❤️

This time, however, even though my heart opened up, pleading for the Lord to soften it and help me heal, I was surprised that the words took a completely different meaning! Instead of the words, pleading to the Lord, they were pleading to my husband.

In that moment, I saw all of the times that I had been difficult, but in every difficult moment, I still loved him fiercely and completely! His love, touch of reassurance and grounding, and forgiveness gave me permission to hold onto him, because he was holding onto me! Even when I did not feel like I deserved it. Why? Because 90% of the time my husband is Christlike.

Now it was my turn. To go home and love him and hold onto him, despite his poor reactions. His very human reactions. It happens to the best of us sometimes. 😉🙈

It’s easy to love and loving people. The real test is how you respond to someone who is obviously struggling to display the love they have inside. But isn’t that what we have promised to do when we take upon ourselves the name of Christ?

I’m not talking about removing boundaries. Sometimes love is walking away for a few moments or hours even. Love this patient. Love is kind. Love forgives, 70×7 times. The faster the better. 🙏🏼❤️

Overcoming those primal urges, to react as the human animal would have us react, takes practice and time and devotion. I’m still practicing.

There is no one on this planet that I would rather practice with then my dream come true. I love you. John Wilson! 🥰 I vow to always hold onto you as you hold onto me and we hold onto the Lord together. 🙏🏼

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