Strongs 214

I am in many ways grateful that I hung in as long as I did trying to sound the alarm / give warning and try to communicate as best I could what was going on so people could stop.

I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about the countless warnings a part of Kris gave me spiritually as in spiritual scene after spiritual scene he was being taken captive. Like literally I’m staring at him silent and he is yelling at me to tell them what “they” (Bob Jones, Paul Cain, and John Paul Jackson specifically) did to me. Kris was justifying what he did that he was being taken into custody for by saying he “had to do what he did to save me.”

That’s crap.

Had Kris not taken matters into his own hands God would have sent angelic armies to help me.

In some way that part of Kris insists he is an angel when I see a spirit of delusion, the pauper king, the self-professed royal who is actually as scripture says, “a bastard, and not a son”…Kris is illegitimate and used what he got from me to pretend to be something and someone he wasn’t.

I keep seeing Kris and I as students at the original School of Prophets the one in scripture and John Paul Jackson is there, my dad taught there and there are countless from every walk and way of life and things are not denominational.

It’s unfortunate that what I experienced myself doing in visions seems like scenes out of a Marvel movie, etc (i.e. hiding throughout time, seeing myself shift shapes and take different forms)…I continue to see the abuses of men again me and countless women in my generation and wonder what the heck were they thinking?

Then I wonder what God is doing because He is redeeming the time and the men who abused me are running out of time to repent and make right what they have done.

I was arguing with Mark in the spiritual realm last night. What was happening was Mark was trying to force a connection related to impartation and me receiving from Mark a spiritual impartation and I told him no be I am not to receive any impartation that way.

I told Mark that I didn’t need a Queen maker - something very similar to what I told Kris in a video in 2019 AFTER Kris inappropriately accessed me.

Today, I felt both Mark & Kris in the spiritual checking in and seeing if I was okay and were advising me. Kris didn’t feel “present” or of this present time - like a past version of himself / a part of him.

October several years ago while traveling through Virginia and parts of the area where our colonial ancestors would have settled, I shared with my mom what happened with Kris.

“Leave him behind. Forget about him. He needs you more than you need him. You do NOT need him.”

In a way she is right. I move on. I move forward.

-Philippians 3:13-14

I have so many regrets for what didn’t happen and couldn’t happen because there was no accountability.

I am grateful that I am out of the Charismatic systems. Now when I hear the language and the claims I shake my head in disbelief at the contrived and delusional garbage being presented as mostly what is said is meaningless, motionless and going absolutely in circles.

Just yuck.
The environments are “yuck”.