Depth Integration

Me encanta el Ecuador-I love Ecuador! My soul feels at home here. Over the weekend, Tati and I visited Cuenca and Paute, hosted by my gracious profesora de español, Rosa💜. Our Embodied Heart Retreat began yesterday and I sense it will be powerful again this year. Many blessings, Gregorio/Gregg

When Your Father’s Spirit Teaches You About Love
“As I asked the medicine to help me connect with this energy, Bola sang an icaro called ‘Let Go into the Flow.’ My father appeared, encouraging me, ‘Son, embrace the Divine Masculine. Feel the support I could not fully give you.’ I relaxed deeply, letting go into this newfound sense of protection and love.”

Healing rarely arrives as we expect. Sometimes it comes through visions, voices, or ancestral presences that rewrite our understanding of love, support, and what’s possible. It can come through a shaman’s song, through the presence of a father we thought was lost, through realizing that support was never absent, only unseen.

For most of my life, I searched for the support of strong men. I shaped myself to earn it, worked overtime to deserve it, and gave everything hoping they’d finally show up for me. Yet nothing I did was enough. My father’s conditional love taught me that my worth depended on performance. His words echoed through me: “Who do you think you are, Big Time?”

In that sweat lodge in Ecuador, something shifted. The medicine opened a doorway, and my father’s spirit met me there, not as the limited man with wounds, but as something larger. His soul showed me what he couldn’t in life: that I am worthy as I am. That support is my birthright. That the Divine Masculine is about protection, strength in service, a steady presence whispering, “I have your back.”

That moment didn’t erase years of longing or loss, but it transformed my relationship to masculine energy. It was never about erasing the past. I reclaimed what was lost and discovered that love can transcend death itself.
This is the mystery Rooted Soul invites you into: that transformation is possible beyond logic. That those we think are gone are still near. That healing happens in dimensions we’re just beginning to remember.
From Chapter 5: My First Sacred Journey

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After decades of searching, healing, learning, and remembering, today, Rooted Soul: Weaving Sacred Threads and Conscious Embodiment into Oneness is officially out in the world.
This book is an invitation. An invitation to come home to your body. To remember that the sacred and the human were never separate. To trust that your story, no matter how fragmented, how painful, how shameful it feels, carries the map back to wholeness.
This is not a quick-fix self-help manual. This is not a linear narrative of triumph and recovery. This is the messy, beautiful, honest story of what it takes to truly inhabit your own flesh, to reclaim your power, and to serve something greater than yourself.
From the AIDS crisis in 1980s New York to the shamans of Ecuador and the mystical landscapes of England, this journey changed everything I thought I knew about healing, love, and spirit. It shattered my certainty and rebuilt my faith. It taught me that wholeness requires both descending into the depths of our wounds and ascending into the light of our potential.
What I’ve learned is this: your healing is never just personal. When you face what your family couldn’t face, when you release the pain your ancestors carried, when you reclaim the fragmented pieces of yourself, you send a ripple backward through generations and forward into the collective consciousness. Your individual awakening becomes humanity’s awakening.
If you’ve ever felt disconnected from yourself, if you’ve carried shame that didn’t belong to you, if you’ve longed to live more fully in your truth, if you’ve wondered whether healing is even possible—this book was written for you.
It’s the story of remembering what was never truly lost.

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