Robyn Harris

Almost 4 years ago, my life upended. Within a span of a week I left my home of 10 years in Nashville, my friends, my community, and what seemed like my dreams along with it. I remember the exact feeling of despair as I watched the Nashville skyline get tinier and tinier in my rearview, almost like i was watching myself disappear along with it. It was never how i wanted to leave, or how I saw my future unfolding.
The life that followed this catastrophic fracture was fraught with uncertainty, betrayal, a lawsuit that felt like it would never end and even fear for my personal safety. Between all of that was a steadfast will to survive, which often came at the expense of processing my own grief. The day I started to write this song I was sitting on an uncomfortable hard-wood bench waiting for my name to be called in (you guessed it) traffic court. I was two years in to living in TX and I never found the strength to change my license from TN. It was such a seemingly trivial gesture of bureaucracy, but it hit me in that moment that I had avoided it, because holding onto that license meant that I could still keep a piece of me, something that still felt like mine. And it was a hope, a hope that maybe one day I would return. Return to my home in Nashville, my chosen family, and to the woman who I was before everything was broken.
But I will never return to her. She doesn’t exist anymore. We can’t detach ourselves from our grief, as much as we often wish we could. Grief changes us, shapes us into something new and often unrecognizable.
This song is about honoring that break and stepping into the unknown of finding who you are again after you were forced to leave the previous you behind.
if you’ve ever had to carry such crushing grief, i just want to say that i see you. you’re not alone. you’re loved. and this song is for you.

huge thank you to the iconic and badass, all-woman team that shaped this song into what it is today!

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