The Muddy Heathen

My David Bowie collection is dropping next month for the Darksome Black Sheep market on December 5th and 6th. Here's a sneak peek at 2 mugs from the collection.

It's about as hard to get a Black Vulture to sit still for a photo as it was for me to get my s**t together and build a website.

But I fu***ng did it. Finally.

So go look. Or don't. Just know that I can command vultures from the sky, and I won't hesitate to call upon them for this or that. Not a threat, no, no, no. Just, ya know, letting ya know.
Anyway, you can find my shop listed in my profile. Maybe you should go have a gander to appease the vultures and whatnot.

muddyheathen.com

After over 7 months of fighting for his life in the hospital, I lost my step dad last night.

I hurt in ways I never thought possible. I let out the loudest blood curdling scream and continued to scream on my kitchen floor for 20 minutes. I'm beyond grateful for having such an amazing dad for 33yrs of my life. He came into it when I was 5 and showed me what having a real dad was like.
I try to keep my FB to only people I know in real life (with the exception of a few internet pals) so most of you know Ken. Most of you grew up with Ken being your dad as well. He loved all my friends and regularly told me how happy it made him to know I had friends looking out for me growing up. I can't make sense of a lot right now but I guess that's nor.al when grieving.

I'm so gutted and lost right now. 😭😭😭😭

Everyone in my house has the flu, including me. The flu has caused my Cyclic Vomiting and Gastroparesis to flare up. I spent all night on the bathroom floor shaking, boiling hot, and vomiting an obscene amount. I haven't flared up since I was in England. And right now, this flare-up is making me really miss .butler .

When I got to England, I flared up pretty bad (we debated a hospital visit), but i couldn't vomit. The pain was so unbelievable, and I spent so much time on her bathroom floor curled around the toilet and fighting back so many tears. I've never flared up in front of anyone but family before. I felt so embarrassed to be in such a vulnerable position in front of someone that I was meeting for the first time in person. But holy s**t was she a fu***ng Saint! She (along with her mother during the day) lovingly took care of me. She sat in the bathroom with me, she brought me tea, brought me bins to puke in if I needed to, brought me this weird medicine that helped me puke, and warm compresses for my tummy. At one point, as we sat on the bathroom floor, she could see I was fighting tears and in so much pain. She looked over and said, "If you need to cry, you can," and right there, the tears just came pouring out of my face. As I cried, she came over and hugged me while I hugged the toilet crying.

I am so grateful for that gross intimate time we spent with each other. I am grateful for all of your care while I was sick. I am grateful for you allowing me to be weak while sick. Most of all, I am grateful for you and your place in my life. You are so special to me and such a delight to know. Thank you so much for being exactly as you are and allowing me to be exactly as I am. I love and miss you SO SO SO much!