Stargirl

i’d be mad asf if i wasn’t me 😹😻💜

is this causal enough for everyone? am i fitting in? am i a cool uncle now? am i a poser now? am i uhhhh am i … uhhh … meow?

here are a few beautiful moments that i have found you in since leaving. 2 years ago you were taken so violently away from this earth. i feel like im in the moment i found out right now. i feel like i’ve been there this whole time. i miss you. we always talked this time of year especially. i can’t go back to the marietta square where we would play as middle schoolers & later where you would work & we met up as teenagers. i keep trying to hold onto all the joy & light you so easily spread by just being you. you have given me so much, even after you left this physical space. i am so eternally grateful for our friendship. you & carmen were my first friends in middle school. her & i talk about you basically every day now. we miss you. no one should ever have to listen to their friends murder on a true crime podcast. no friend, teacher, coworker, sister, mother, no one. no one should have to beg & petition for their loved ones murderer to be held responsible for his own actions. as difficult as hearing your murder & losing you has been, i will absolutely never give up on you & this fight. you are worth every hard moment & tears & discomfort. i implore any & everyone to sign the petition & share her story using the . we would all love to see Brooks Cleary found guilty for his crimes. i hate the fact that i even have to bring him up when talking about you. it’s just not fair. i will not let you be remembered just by what he did to you. your curly hair & big bright laugh, your kindness, your love for animals, your hatred for glitter (i swear you are playing pranks on us putting glitter everywhere, i know you think that is soooo funny), the red hair dye strand that you thought would come out in a month but stuck for 2 years, your jokes, & most of all your ability to always find light even in the darkest of situations - even when handed bad cards. not a day goes by where you don’t cross my mind. i remember & love you just as you were. i always will. rest in peace Hailey, i hope you visit me in my dreams again soon, in the meantime i’ll find you everywhere i look.

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