I write

Today your absence felt so heavy.

I see you in the places where you use to lie and play.
And that very clear image-
I wanted to turn into reality.

I miss hugging you.
I miss carrying you.
I miss watching you sleep.
I miss taking pictures of you.

I wish I can hold you again.
I wish I can stare at that cute and healthy baby again-
I miss you, our good boy.
I miss you a loooot.

It breaks my heart
and it feels like this pain is just growing bigger, deeper, and darker every day that passes.
It's like my heart has been counting the days since you were gone,
And on days like this
I couldn't help but cry.
There's no other way to hold you now
But I wish the heaven is listening,
And I wish you're one of those stars looking down here from above.

Would I still be able to meet you again?
In another life?
In another universe?

Until then...
I'll keep you in my heart.
🐾🪽🌈

And there's always that soft whisper in your head, amidst all noise and chaos, that tells you, you want to stay alive... and in your own simplest way, just like wanting to eat tteokbokki for the day, you helped that soft whisper grow louder.... Rest well, Baek Se-Hee writer-nim. You fought well. And you taught us how to keep living. 🕊

A groundbreaking and truly inspiring writer, Baek Se-hee's plain-spoken honesty in 'I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki' opened up a vital global conversation about mental health.

She had the courage to speak up and share her darkness, and in doing so, she became a guiding light for countless others. While she may be gone, her journey of vulnerability will continue to be a source of comfort and support for readers across the globe.

Heavenly Father,
it feels too much to bear.

Plunder and corruption,
earthquakes that shake our ground,
typhoons that tear through what’s left standing —
how much more, Lord?

Our hearts are weary,
our nation groans beneath the weight.
But still, we lift our eyes to You.

Have mercy on the Philippines, O God.
Breathe hope into the hopeless,
strength into the broken,
light into this long night.

Send help, Lord.
We have nowhere else to turn.

In Jesus name, Amen.