Tita Amiga

I started my healing journey in February 2021, and it was one of the most humbling moments in my life.

By then, I was already experiencing various physical manifestations of my health as I dealt with recurring allergies. I also noticed that I quickly became ill despite trying to be healthy and physically active. Fortunately, I met with a nutritionist who encouraged me to check if I'm harboring any unwanted emotions as it also directly affect my overall well-being.

So in addition to changing certain unhealthy lifestyles, I also have to talk about my mental and emotional health, the root cause.

I always thought I was resilient. After all, my parents did an excellent job bringing me up to be independent. But I got it wrong. I was only good at suppressing my feelings.

That's why I sought help in various methods (group and individual professional sessions). I won't go into the details, but it was the toughest thing I've ever done: being vulnerable.

This was the first time I was honest with my hidden demons every time I was triggered. I will be so exposed and naked, but I know I must if I want to be helped. I must break down my wall and believe in the painful process and the people helping me.

And I shall always be grateful for the support of certain trustworthy individuals. They became my accountable community partners. They accepted my unwanted parts and made me feel loved.

They made me feel loved despite the ugly truths about myself.

And while I'm still on the healing journey, I have been inspired to do the same. I wanted to give back to the universe, at least the kindness it showed me. I want to be a ray of hope to wounded people living in this broken world.

And I hope that in the future, I can look back and say that all these tears are worth crying to that end.