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Prompt 5: dance
Conquering my fears
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I wasn't going to do this prompt at first as it involves something out of my comfort zone. I don't "go out dancing" nor jam in my kitchen.
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Even my cat was skeptical at my attempt to do the robot dance.
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It's hard to do something you are not confident in, especially when you compare yourself to other people.
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But I try reminding myself that life is not a competition. It's a single player game where you level up by gaining new skills and collecting points.
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So here is me imagining the world is not on lockdown, the Sun is shining and I am being brave enough to go out to a concert or a festival and move to the music.
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Also leading my cat into a battle against all people's self doubting thoughts.
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@ Manchester, United Kingdom

I have been finding it harder to function normally for the past couple of months. I am still struggling.
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I kept on the low, trying to work it out and waiting for this to pass.
But then I realised I can't just show the good moments and the victory and the "success"
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So here I am, surviving.
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No picture of my face, but a representative picture of how I feel.
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Trapped inside myself. My mind running in circles.
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But now I can recognize some good things coming from it:
*I am reflecting on myself, on what I really want and what I can do for the world
*I appreciate and admire people that are ahead of me
*I am grateful for little things
*Struggle is the process that leads forward, to improvement and growth
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I am struggling.
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But I know I will be so much better on the other side.
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Today has been a great day.
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I stepped out of my comfort zone and went to a business workshop to learn and network.
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I had to wake up early, walk in the rain to get the bus to a place full of driven, passionate and intimidating people.
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I braced myself for overwhelming feelings of worthlessness, anxiety and confusion.
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When I was younger I used to think of myself as an extrovert, a people's person. But over the past years I turned into a shy, insecure and scared version of myself.
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Somehow I forgot how to reach out to people, open conversations and make connections.
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I sometimes feel trapped and in disbelief at how hard it is now for me to speak up. Is this really me? How did it happen?
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So now I am working on being social again, getting to a version of myself that I like and I am proud of.
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I am grateful to the lady that sparked a conversation with me today. While talking I slowly remembered how great it is to share ideas with others and learn from people's experience and advice.
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Next time, I shall be the one to say hi. To smile. To remind someone else that people are still beautiful and kind and just as scared.
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@ Manchester, United Kingdom