Shape Coaching

*WHAT I REALLY DON'T WANT YOU TO KNOW ABOUT ME*

I don't want to be the coach who posts only my highlights reel. So here is my truth this week, and what I've learned.

I made this video earlier this week because I want you to see that I'm doing the work just as much as everyone else. I'm walking the path alongside you 💛

I felt so much shame for binge eating these past 2 weeks.

The thing is, the judgment I was holding on myself was perpetuating the very behaviour I wanted to drop.

I was believing that if I ate the junk food in the moment, then it would make me feel better, less stressed and satisfied.

But the comfort was short-lived. Once it wore off, Id feel a wave of shame. And then I'd eat something else so I could feel the comfort again.

I was operating inside of a misunderstanding.

When I really slowed down, I saw the truth that I already know.

Nothing outside of myself can deliver any feelings inside me. Eating wasn't going to provide me with the feelings I was craving. It is only the thinking I am attaching to that is creating feelings within me.

When I caught this, I had a big internal shift. I remembered that I am not the thinking that I experience.

I could see straight through the misunderstanding for the first time, and it stopped making sense for me to binge on junk food.

I haven't binged for the remainder of this week and the urge is gone too, because I can see that it's just thought in the moment that doesn't require action.

I haven't bypassed the thoughts, ignored or repressed them. Instead, I have seen through them.

I have realised they don't make sense to act on, because binge eating isn't going to deliver me anything that I want, so I don't need to do it.

The ego can get tricky sometimes, but I am seeing through thought more and more, in every area of my life. And I am always gently returned to my true nature, without judgement.

Can you relate to what I'm sharing, or is it just me?

I believed for a really long time that I couldn't do things, so I didn't.

'I can't quit my job.'
'I can't start my own business.'
'I'm not good enough.'

It was a scary place to live. I had so much anxiety that I was having daily panic attacks. The doctors told me I was depressed.

I was signed off work for 4 months.

During this time, I slowed down and I had a huge insight.

I have a choice.

I didn't see the choices in front of me for a long time because I was living at the pace of my thinking (something that my coach once said to me).

I was living in the past and the future, travelling at the speed of my mind, to everywhere except the present moment.

Living in those places, places that don't exist, limits our ability to see the choices we have.

In slowing down, I realised I have choices.

In fact, I have an abundance of choice.

In that realisation, I chose to take responsibility for the part I was playing in creating my reality.

I quit my job and started my own business. 

I started doing what I wanted to do in the world.

I stopped experiencing prolonged and severe anxiety.

I do still experience anxious thinking and that results in feeling anxious, but the feelings pass more quickly since I've slowed down and have chosen to live a conscious life, living from moment to moment.

I'm not saying that you should quit your job and start your own business, like I did. 

Instead, I invite you to slow down and ask yourself: What pace are you living your life at?