Snowflakes on Roses

October 15th is PREGNANCY & INFANT LOSS AWARENESS DAY. On that day at 7:00 pm your time, light a candle while saying your baby's name in their honor. Parents from all over the world will be doing this throughout the day, creating a wave of light. Share your pictures and story on Instagram.

This is an overwhelmed person.

Life has kicked her in the head, chest and the feet from under her.

"How do you keep going?"
"How do you still get up every morning?"
"How are you surviving?"

I'm not super human. I cry. I breakdown. I scream. I get frustrated and angry. That's literally the meaning of overwhelmed.

I have lots of moments of weakness. I take antidepressants. I ask for help when I need it. But sometimes it's simply too much.

Why am I crying today? Because the reality of my fu**ed of situation has finally hit me.

I don't have a baby (one and one ).
I don't have a husband.
Pretty soon I won't have a house to call my own.
My only living son is staying with his dad 50% of the time.
I come home to a completely empty house.
The family I have made along the way are gone.
I feel so alone.
I feel so unloved.
I feel so ugly in my own skin.
I feel so betrayed.
I am so hurt.

What do I have left from the life that I took for granted? Pretty much nothing. And this is slowly killing me.

When is it my turn?