Exquisite Intentions

Before all of it…
I trusted myself.

I trusted my intuition.
I trusted that little voice inside me.
I trusted the universe.
I trusted love.

Even during my first marriage — even when things felt wrong — part of me still believed:

“One day I’m going to meet the person who feels like home.”

I thought he was out there somewhere.
The man who would be kind.
Safe.
Emotionally available.
The one who would love me the way I loved others.

And when I met my second husband…
I truly thought that was finally happening.

Because narcissists don’t show up wearing warning labels.

They show up as the answer to the ache you’ve carried for years.

He seemed emotionally aware.
Attentive.
Connected.
Like everything I had waited for.

And when it all eventually fell apart…
when the mask dropped…
when the confusion, pain, and abandonment settled into my bones…

The hardest part wasn’t even losing him.

It was losing trust in myself.

Because suddenly I was questioning everything.

How did I not see it?
How did I trust this?
How can I ever trust my intuition again after being so wrong?

And I think a lot of women silently carry that shame after narcissistic abuse.

Not just heartbreak.
Self-betrayal.

But here’s what I’ve learned:

Your intuition didn’t fail you.

Your intuition was buried underneath hope.
Trauma.
Survival.
Conditioning.
The deep human desire to finally be loved safely.

There’s a difference.

Healing after narcissistic abuse isn’t just about recovering from the relationship.

It’s about rebuilding the relationship you have with yourself.

Learning how to hear your own voice again.
Learning how to trust your body again.
Learning that discernment and softness can exist together.

And one day…
you stop asking, “How could I have been so blind?”

And start realizing:

“I was never stupid for wanting love.” 🌿

Exquisite Intentions is the only jewelry brand that meets you inside the spiral- offering a wearable somatic anchor to help you feel safe when everything in you just wants the hurt to stop.