Positively Oily

Do you wonder, God am I getting this right? I may not wake up always and immediately to Bible but I wake up with a song in my heart, a Bible verse or start thinking about people and pray as I think about them. Is this what it means to think and focus on God through the day? But if I can do that why do I struggle giving and letting him handle the BIG things. Why do I wrestle with God? Does anybody else struggle with this?
But I do know that God loves me just where I am at. I may not always see the results right now immediately but as I glance back over my past God has really shaped and molded me. He is still pruning away. This process seems so so so slow to me, because I want to be perfect now! Usually it is because I look at others that seem to have it together and lose focus. But I have got to stop comparing myself to others. God made me. He did not make me a copy. I am an individual and unique and beautiful. That is what makes us all beautiful. So quit putting yourself down. Speak positive affirmations. If you fail get back up and try again. Food for thought.
Love and prayers to family and friends.