Sin Bandera Poetry

I look back at posts from 16 years ago, and all I can do is think of the massive abuse I could have avoided if I had just been a little smarter. Some of it is triggering. I see what I've written and realize how much I loved the person I thought they were, not who they actually were. I see all the years I tried to change myself to fit their ideal image, and no matter how much I changed, i was still never good enough. I realize how much I've grown and while the narcissistic abuse still haunts me, I am no longer an abused girl. I am loved, respected, and treated right. I still have a hard time trusting the good times, but there hasn't been a fall. No, "i love you, but..." No abuse. Emotional abuse is real, even if you don't see physical scars. And it's possible to heal