Astral Projection

It is like living in Alaska
I do not remember the last time I saw the sun
Maybe a day ago
Maybe a month ago

One day it makes its return
Stealthily, quietly
It starts with a curled lip that forms a smile
It's laughter
It's knowing I am going to marry you
It's waking up next to you every morning
It's you

You were fast cars and recklessness
Tumblr posts at 3am
Milky skin attached to the damned
A demon
You were safety during a war
Something to fall back on
Something creating false safety

I fell in love with a man who had soft hands that held me so surely
He kissed the scars on my wrists and thighs and told me it was all going to mean something one day
I fell in love with cocoa skin and ringlet hair
I fell in love with someone who will one day break me more than others have
But it was all going to mean something one day

Do you hear me mind?
It's me, body.
I know you haven't been well lately.
But I wanted to tell you something.
Your actions hurt me,
You keep driving me to exhaustion
You forget me
Still im here
So here my wish
Take good care of me, my brother.
Because we're living this life together.