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Circling the wagons. The other day when I visited my doctor he said that he found it amazing that I was still going to work every day, attending prisons and doing what I am supposed to be doing. He told me that some people would be circling the wagons and would be living in a world of self pity. He said that I was writing quite a story for myself. My family believes that as long as I keep going that I am going to be alright. I believe that too. The good thing about my life is that I have had the opportunity to watch men and women face bad situations and I saw how they came through it. Some of the most spiritual lessons that I have learned have been in the darkest moments of my life. In 2008, when I faced federal charges, I had to simply let God have it. There was absolutely nothing that I could do about it. I had no control over the matter. Same thing with this sickness, I personally do not have control over the matter. But there is one who does and that is God. I don't say these things to brag on myself but when I am faced with a situation that I have no control over, whatever it might be, I let God have it. It seems like everything always works out for the best when I let go. "Let go and let God!"