EveryDay Shine

I’ve been feeling like a placeholder
Like you’re not fascinated with me it’s the space I keep neat until you get back to your needs
I’m really not trying to love potential
I’m more of a verbs girl
It’s the steps that really matter
I don’t want to wake up in the middle of a dream with no chauffeur
A floating cloud no place built for it to occur
Just an IV full of plans, and hopes and wishes to achieve without the desire for culmination…

Moonlight illuminated across your spine
Inline with mine….
Deep strokes caressing nerves that bring me to explode
Shooting Star down my torso, your chest to support her
My legs straddling c**t to nose knees upon thy shoulders
my soul in your affirmations
ohhh I love the demands of submissive
to let go
One finger on her tantalizing
circling his will
it’s delicious
one hand going up and down my thigh
Rotating my earths core
His voice said mmm I needs a down pour
His room becomes a rain forest
One hand under my chin
He gives me breath then takes it back
When he put it in
All night, by the moonlight
I’m more than enough shine
I sat on the mountain until
Dawn offered my voice to the heavens
Stoke by stroke
Beautiful peaches in bloom
Laying Intertwined
This is the sunrise I imagine

I used to have a thorn in my soul, idk how it started but it kept growing.
Once I tried to take it out but I was lost without what filled the hole in my soul
It kept growing and growing, and I got lost in mourning because I felt so lonely
I was filled up with things
Over burden with longing
At capacity with emptiness
Bag lady road winding
Even my eyes were so full they were closed
I had to let go,
Of things disguise as fuel
Root rotters, time suckers
No give back
I had to submerge myself in removing the thorns and healing the empty
Learn to feel full off silence and find movement in sitting in stillness
Find peace without it being neat
Find me in the abundance of holding onto things