ObnoxiouslyFit

Yuuuup. That was me you saw…
Sitting on the sidewalk.
Watching a snail make its way
Down a wall
And back up again

See you again next time

Time to fill your vessels and sit them under the full moon! 🌕

Question to consider when you sip your water after it’s bathed in the moon light :
What version of me am I done rehearsing?

I find rest hard and perfectionism a necessity.

These two things make my life …. Difficult.

Being idle is difficult. I like my hands moving. So …. Games on my phone is a standard go to. But I feel like a disconnect from myself when I play them. It’s a great distraction but… more of a dopamine hit than anything else… which means it’s still disregulating.

This practice of doodling. Of placing a wet tea bag on a piece of paper and seeing what comes. Then making stumps… or whatever. Grounds me to the present and allows me to let go of perfectionist tendencies.

It’s like doing a bicep curl for bigger arms. To get better at resting I need to rest and to get better at grasping to perfection and constant self judgement I need to be messy.

I think we talk a lot about anxiety like it’s caused by life… but for me, it’s the constant pressure I put on myself all day (and let’s be honest here ….. night) long.

What in your life is making it difficult to get through the day to day with a regulated nervous system? What causes you anxiety? Not the outer things happening to you…. But your inner thoughts, beliefs and difficulties?

I’d start your “work” here. The real work.

Light and love from my spirit to yours ✨