Bridgette Lief
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07/13/2025
The Wake Between Worlds
- Bridgette Lief -
I sleep like a ghost in borrowed skin,
afraid of the waking,
where nothing remembers me.
The fever steals
my name from my own mouth,
and every thread I once held
falls like a secret through smoke.
I rise—
not reborn, not rested—
but hollowed,
like I’ve walked out of my own dream
without the map.
There are pages still warm
with words I once wrote,
plans fever-bright,
half-finished worlds that waited—
but now blur like breath on glass.
Familiar.
But illegible.
It is like staring at a photo
of someone who knows you,
loved you, maybe—
but you cannot place their voice,
their scent,
the gravity they held in your orbit.
Only ache.
My projects—my stars—
float just beyond my grasp,
orbiting
a planet I can no longer name.
But even in this thick forgetting,
some part of me remembers
that I remember.
And so I write this
to the self I cannot yet reach:
Hold on.
The fog is not forever.
You are not lost,
only paused.
Your fire is curled beneath the ash.
And when you wake whole—
you’ll find it waiting.
All of it.
All of you.
Still here.
Still burning.
The Museum of Unfelt Things
- Bridgette Lief -
There is a museum no one talks about.
No grand opening. No Instagram reel of the ribbon cut.
No field trips. No audio guides.
No neon signs. Just a heavy quietness where the walls sweat dust and ghosts.
Ellie had been crying for a lifetime. Not in one stretch, not with floods.
No, her grief was a slow leak—like a pipe behind drywall.
Invisible enough to ignore, until the house began to rot from within.
She learned early: Feeling makes people uncomfortable.
And discomfort makes people disappear.
So she became a magician of suppression, an artist of appearing okay.
Smiles like wallpaper. Apologies before her throat even formed a sentence.
She had the face of a girl you don’t worry about.
That’s how she got forgotten.
Affect phobia.
That was the name someone gave it once. In a book she never finished.
A therapist with a furrowed brow told her,
“You’ve learned to fear your own emotions because others feared them first.”
And damn, wasn’t that the truth.
Her mother’s motto was “You don’t have to cry about it.”
Her father vanished into migraines and car repairs whenever sadness leaked into a room.
Her teachers liked her “quiet focus.”
Her boyfriends liked that she never got “too emotional.”
Her friends loved how “strong” she was.
Nobody ever asked what it cost.
See, affect phobia isn’t just about emotion.
It’s about the way the world punishes emotion.
It’s about how grief gets mistaken for neediness.
How anger gets labeled crazy.
How fear gets ignored.
How love, actual soft-tremble real love, gets shut down unless it’s filtered through irony and memes and emojis with the sound turned off.
Affect phobia is the way people learn to put silencers on their own heartbeats.
Because the noise might offend someone else’s illusion of control.
It’s survival through numbness.
Ellie stopped saying “I’m tired” when nobody ever asked why.
She stopped crying in public when a friend rolled her eyes and changed the subject.
She stopped writing poems when her ex called them “too intense.”
Eventually, she stopped speaking up at all.
The museum built itself inside her.
And here’s the tragedy:
There were hundreds of others in that museum.
Whole crowds wandering the halls of muted ache,
standing quietly in front of exhibits like:
The Time I Almost Told Someone
The Day I Was Too Much
The Message I Deleted Because They’d Never Understand
The Panic Attack I Had At The Grocery Store But Smiled Through It
The Joy I Wanted To Share But Thought Would Make Me Seem Arrogant
And worst of all:
The Love I Offered That Got Laughed At
Everyone in the museum had been trained to be invisible in their own story.
Their pain, curated into something digestible. Or worse—inspirational.
“You’re so resilient!”
“You’re so strong!”
“You’re amazing for handling so much!”
The praise felt like chains.
Because no one asked,
“What would happen if you didn’t have to handle so much?”
And then…
A janitor in the museum stopped to cry in front of an exhibit.
Not silently.
Not pretty.
A full-body sob that cracked the porcelain of the entire place.
Ellie watched. Heart pounding.
Because no one ever did that here.
You were supposed to study the grief.
Not feel it.
The janitor, red-faced, wiped his nose and met her eyes.
“I can’t pretend anymore,” he said. “It’s killing me.”
And she—who had never broken the glass between herself and the world—whispered,
“Me too.”
That moment cracked something open.
It wasn’t fireworks.
It wasn’t applause.
Just a slow crumble of stone and silence.
More people began to speak. Not perform—speak.
Their voices shook. Their stories didn’t always make sense.
There were no hashtags. No affirmations. No edits.
But there was truth.
Raw. Ugly. Holy.
Affect phobia feeds on isolation.
It thrives in environments where vulnerability is punished with silence.
Where people say, “You’re not still upset about that, are you?”
Where we mistake emotional repression for maturity.
Where the ones who scream in pain are called unstable—and the ones who smile through it are called strong.
But in that crumbling museum, people began to see:
Suffering shared is not contagious—it’s connective.
And silence is not peace.
Ellie doesn’t live in the museum anymore.
She works at a community center now, running support groups for people who’ve been told they’re too much.
People who never had the luxury of a safe meltdown.
People who survived because they couldn’t afford not to.
She doesn’t have all the answers.
But she looks people in the eyes now when they cry.
She says, “I believe you.”
She says, “Take your time.”
She says, “You don’t have to earn rest.”
And sometimes, she just sits beside them in the quiet.
Because she knows—
Even silence can be different
when it is shared.
And maybe one day,
the museum will turn to dust
because there will be
no more unfelt things.
Just humans,
with room to feel everything.
07/07/2025
If rest feels like defeat, that’s trauma whispering lies. The real power move? Showing up *after* the crash. We are phoenixes, not machines.
Remember to give yourself permission to pause — your comeback is worth the wait.
07/06/2025
📣 A Friendly PSA
I don’t create for you.
Not the "you" who demands I edit myself to suit your comfort.
Not the "you" who wants sunshine without ever standing in the storm.
This space, this voice, this work—
isn’t curated for your approval.
It’s not made to entertain you, or soothe your affect phobia.
I post light and dark.
Because both exist.
Because pretending the world is only one color is not spirituality—
it's delusion.
And frankly, it’s a sickness to reject half of the human experience.
If someone is mugged, I’m not going to slap a rainbow filter over it.
Reality deserves to be seen.
Grief deserves to speak.
The shadows deserve to breathe.
I’m not here to hide the darkness so you can feel better about avoiding your own.
Light doesn’t mean anything without shadow.
Stop asking creators to lie for your comfort.
So no—
I will not “make it more positive.”
I will not sugarcoat the pain.
And I will never apologize for honoring the truth.
This art is not a performance for your consumption.
It's a portal. A mirror. A map.
If you can’t handle the reflection,
you were never the audience in the first place.
—Bridgette Lief 🖤
07/02/2025
✨ Functioning on vibes, visions, and vaporized boundaries
Somewhere between the flicker of the fridge light and the sound of your own blood,
that’s where the masterpiece waits.
Not for applause.
Not for critique.
Just for you.
Paint with your left hand.
Write backward if it feels holy.
Let the poem spill without grammar.
You weren’t born to be symmetrical.
There is no deadline in the silence.
No algorithm in the ache.
Just you, the light bending differently in your room today,
and the version of you that still believes
in making something
no one else will ever quite understand.
Make it anyway.
🖤 —Bridgette Lief
🧿 Your inner myth deserves external art. Who else paints portals with one hand and balances astrology in the other?
Tag your fellow transmutationists ⤵️👽🛸
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06/22/2025
And it was then, he was named. Mr. Loquacious Loki Fancy Pants.
06/18/2025
The Theater Kid Who Grew Teeth
They said she was all monologue and jazz hands—
the kind who’d spin grief into greasepaint,
twirl through trauma in tap shoes,
make every heartbreak a standing ovation.
She was soft then. Sugary.
A cinnamon-roll soul wrapped in showtunes.
Every wound became a spotlight.
Every silence, a cue.
But something happened backstage
between the curtain calls and the cold dressing rooms—
maybe it was a casting rejection
or too many friends clapping for her downfall.
Maybe she got tired
of being everyone’s feel-good,
of bleeding in technicolor
for applause that always faded.
That’s when she grew them.
Teeth.
Real ones.
Not the fake smiles from playbills or Playbills.
Not the sweet bite of sarcasm.
But molars sharpened by betrayal,
canines carved from every
"you’re too much"
they ever threw at her.
The stage didn’t shrink—she didn’t either.
She just stopped apologizing for taking it.
Stopped auditioning for love
in other people’s tragic comedies.
Now when she opens her mouth,
it’s not just lines that come out.
It’s truth. It’s wrath.
It’s wisdom with bite marks.
She still sings,
but now her ballads bite back.
Still dances,
but it’s war paint on her cheeks.
Still acts—
but never for approval.
She’s the theater kid who grew teeth.
The kind you don’t cast aside.
The kind who writes her own roles
and rewrites the ending.
And when they try to dim her spotlight?
She devours the dark.
—Bridgette Lief
If any of these parts of you spoke to your soul, like, share, and save this post — and tag someone in the comments who needs to hear this today. Let’s build a tribe of warriors and dreamers. 💫
06/17/2025
The Scent of Petrichor
To her, petrichor was never just the smell of rain. It was a memory not yet lived, curling at the edges of imagination like old film reels flickering to life. The moment the first drop hit dry earth, she could taste stories-of mossy rebirth, of thunderstorms that kissed the skin with static reverence, of lonely mornings soothed by skywater.
The scent wrapped around her like a lullaby whispered by the clouds,
reminding her that even the ground sighs in relief when the world finally lets go.
She didn't just smell rain-she heard it, felt it, became it.
A soft devotion, unspoken. A vow between sky and soil.
And in that promise, she lived barefoot and brave.
Bridgette Lief
If this stirred something in you… save it for a rainy day, share it with a storm-hearted soul, and follow for more quiet magic.
06/16/2025
"The spirals of the mind are the threads from which the artist weaves the fabric of reality." — Bridgette Lief
Ever feel like your thoughts are swirling in endless loops, yet somehow those very spirals shape everything around you? That's the magic of the awakened artist’s mind — creating worlds from within.
Embrace your inner spiral. Let your creativity flow like a cosmic dance, weaving your unique reality one swirl at a time.
If this speaks to your soul, hit like and share to inspire the artists and dreamers in your life.
06/15/2025
--Let Us Be a Different Kind of Flame--
They built the world with straight edges
and wondered why we curved.
Measured worth in miles run
but never noticed
how we fly inside our stillness.
We do not move the way they mapped it.
We move like constellations
only seen by those who pause.
They call us broken—
but it's only their language
that fails to fit us.
And still—
we create.
With hands that seize or fall asleep.
With voices that ghost mid-thought.
With bodies that betray time
but never betray soul.
Some days we draw with elbows.
Other days we sculpt with blinking eyes
and whispered dictations
to a machine that finally listens.
We become the tools
they mock.
We bend like water around limitation.
We turn pain into pigment,
fatigue into metaphor,
brain fog into bloom.
And they laugh—
at our assistive devices,
our loops and hacks,
our workarounds that dare
to edge just one step closer
to their untouchable “abled” ideal.
Eight stairs ahead,
and they still resent the ramp.
As if surviving in a world
not made for us
isn’t already
an act of
goddamn genius.
Their stairs were never meant
for every kind of rising.
Their jobs, their speed,
their normal—
all built like traps
for bodies that dream otherwise.
But we?
We are not here to be made palatable.
We are here to be undeniable.
We are the detour
that became the real map.
We are the pause
that became the prayer.
We are the glitch
that became the gallery.
We are art—
anyway.
Every day.
In ways they’ll never understand.
So let them call it weakness.
We’ll call it remembrance:
of ancestors who healed by being still,
of spirits that danced without legs,
of songs sung without a voice—
and still heard.
We are not wrong for needing
ramps instead of ladders,
quiet instead of crowds,
rest instead of rush,
or tech to translate
the chaos in our bodies
into sacred noise.
We are the necessary interruption.
We are the holy redesign.
We are here
not in spite of our difference—
but because the world
has always needed
a different kind of flame.
- Bridgette Lief
06/15/2025
The cruelest silence I ever kept
was my own truth—
softened, swallowed,
suffocated—
just to keep the room from flinching.
— Bridgette Lief
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