Strong Sweet Caroline

May this post find you, right when you need it. 🌚✨

Yesterday was a day of

chaos,
fear,
rejection,
self criticism,
mourning,
clarity,
and clearing.

I experienced something traumatic.🤯

It was a clear sign from the universe to SLOW DOWN and recognize my sleep deprivation and low cognition and awareness could cause harm.

Thankfully they did not.
The only one hurt was my ego. 😅

But it made me realize something deeper than just slowing down more. ⬇️

👉I’ve been having a hard time letting go of the woman I was before having my first baby.

Go getter and manic manifestor.
Functional on low sleep on more caffeine.
More passionate about certain work and career goals. Flexibility to do whatever whenever.
More connected to some long time female friendships.
A body that responded differently through food and training.

These characteristics ❌no longer align for me.❌

I’ve had to take some time to really mourn over these things, that I’ve loved about myself before. 😢

Today, I’ve shifted back into positivity. 🙏💕 I’m taking more time to uncover what this next version of me looks like, and what she needs to become her highest version.

I’m sharing because I have an inkling there are others out there having a similar experience of heavy emotions.

It might be the 🌝 , it might be just your life right now.

No matter what you put the “blame” on, I hope this post prompts you to really think things through on your own.

Here are some questions I have been asking myself:

What is the underlying feeling in this scenario?
What have I been ignoring that needs attention?
What is the theme I’ve been experiencing (for a certain period of time)?
What can I release and honor for its service in my life up to this moment?
What can be integrated and still fits within my aspiring life?
What is new and exciting I can begin aligning into this next version of me?
How can I sit with this and start taking action without fear?

🔖Use this prompts for the new moon or just for your own self evolution practice.

When someone comments in attempt to knock me down, I rise higher.

On my recent transformation post from prep to pregnancy, someone with no profile commented about “not being transparent of my steroid use”.

1. I’ve always been truthful and open. And it’s all still public on here and moreso on my YouTube (which has helped thousands of women).

2. That was not even the point of the post. It was around hormone health (again, I’ve spoken openly about how my preps (even natural competition) impacted my health. Every comment except his was positive and uplifting.

3. When David proceeded to defend me, which I appreciate as my husband even though I did not ask for him to, the guy proceeded to try to be more hurtful by saying I’m not feminine except for the “plastic bags surgically inserted in my upper chest”.

When someone has a negative agenda, that’s all they will focus on. Trying to be a predator and have a victim to prey energy from. When in reality, it is a reflection of his own low self worth and inner victim mentality.

Hurt people hurt people. Or try to.

I’m sharing this in attempt to help more women. Especially my daughter. Because right now is the most feminine embodiment I’ve ever felt. 💗

Tuesday throwback and reminder.

When you make a commitment to someone else, that’s one type of disappointment. The real let down is when you can’t fulfill a commitment to yourself. ❗️

Every Tuesday is my busiest workday. I love getting a lot done early in the week and it often helps me be grounded and focused the rest of the week on what’s most important and putting hours and energy into each day accordingly.

No matter what is happening or amidst chaotic days, I made a level of commitment to myself this year to surrender🧘🏻‍♀️and lean in further.

The above might sound ambiguous. But for me, trying to lean in to the feminine energy and go with the flow, this guides me there.

It’s also super important for me in this pregnancy to take each moment and day separately. And to better separate thoughts from feelings and from reactions.

Sometimes it looks like using high energy to take a longer walk and go to the gym.

Others might look like sleeping in and reducing caffeine and taking slower moments through the entire day.

And then there are times it might mean rereading an email 3 times before sending it to ensure it properly reflects the message and energy I want someone to receive.

I can’t always control the receiver of that obviously. But I can trust I’m doing my part to hold accountability and commit to helping whomever that is, even if having a crucial conversation.

Every day, you have the choice: stay the same, revert to old patterns/lower level self, or improve.

Choose the latter, even when it’s harder.
We always choose our hard. And we choose if we will show up and hold ourselves accountable to sometime or not.

And this all begins in the mindset. 🧠

Strengthen your mind, and allow that to reflect to your body and soul. Once the three connect, you get one step closer to that triune energy and life. ⚜️