abbiesepilepsy

One month seizure free.
I never thought I’d have to start my clock again, but here we are. I also hate when people take pictures of themselves crying but this is an honest profile, not an influencer platform.
Mentally, I’ve had a really s**tty month. I’m confused, I’m overwhelmed, I’m scared, I’m in pain, I’m exhausted. EXHAUSTED. It’s like my body has forgotten how to recover and heal. I’m barely sleeping - I always make sure that I go to bed at a decent hour allowing me to get at least 7 hours sleep, but I’m lucky if I get 5. Even when I work from home, meaning I can get an extra hour, I still can’t sleep. I’ve tried cbd gummies but they don’t work. My arm is still in pain from the seizures and it took me 3 weeks to ask for help. My new physio thinks I’ve torn my rotator cuff and my pt thinks I could have a hairline fracture somewhere in between my shoulder and my elbow. Also another reason I’m not sleeping. I’m trying SO hard to put on my brave mask but I’m just not over the fact I’ve had to start again. I have an amazing supportive husband who cares and loves me beyond anything I could ever dream of, incredible parents, and some great friends who check in regularly. So why do I feel so meh?