Make Moves Motivation

Want to know how I know the Universe is always supporting you? Even when you're being a sh*t??

THE UNIVERSE FAVOURS A LOVING INTENTION!!

The Universe FAVORS the thoughts and beliefs that are laced with LOVE and the TRUTH of what you are – which is PURE light, innocence and abundance - over any negative thought or belief or doubt you could have.

You could have so many negative thoughts every single day, and then have just one or two glimmers of hope that you place your attention on

and the Universe is like YES – lets play THAT hand

Haven’t you noticed that even IF it gets bad…
..really bad…

The good things seem to come in and give you enough hope to go on.

It ONLY gives you what you can handle – the Universe knows your limits and doesn’t want to break you.

It only wants to wake you up to what’s in the way.

It wants to wake you up to SEE the truth of what you are, to lift the veil of forgetting and remind you of your power.

The Universe is already doing its part to give you everything you want.

You need only learn how to align your whole self with what it is that you want.

10 years ago I was a lot of fun.

I drank 6 nights a week.
Life of the party.
Centre of attention.
Loud, big energy, magnetic.
Always laughing.

I also suffered from eating disorders that I hid from everyone.

I also was afraid of being exposed as the soft heart I was on the inside.

‘Tough as nails’ was used to describe me so many times.

I already had started compartmentalizing and stuffing down the things that hurt me.

Had 100 elephants in the room that I refused to acknowledge; hence, drinking 6 nights a week.

I was afraid to be alone.

Always had to keep moving, couldn’t ever sit still.

Couldn’t sit in the quiet because my mind would be forced to hear itself.

Extremism was the number one sport I participated in.

Extreme restriction followed by extreme fallout.

But if you look at the girl in that photo… would you ever guess?

I wouldn’t. And I am her.

That’s how fkn ignorant I was to my own heart.

Now fast forward 10 years-

The work I’ve done…. Is insurmountable.

And the trauma I’ve faced in the in-between of that decade pushed me down the path of shutting off even further

So much so that I finally broke

And CHOSE to start on the path of letting go.
Of healing.
Feeling.
Trusting.

Owning my s**t - because honestly I was kind of a dick a lot of the time.

Dropping the self centered, ego driven sense of self I carried for most of my life.

This transformation, you might look and say I’m beautiful in both.

And ya know what, I don’t disagree. I am.

And I love both versions just as much as the other.

Cause if not for then girl on the left fu***ng it all up…

The girl on the right wouldn’t exist. ✨🙏

Those of us with the biggest egos go through the hardest, darkest nights.

I was defensive.
Oh boy was I defensive.
Reactive.
Insensitive.
Bordering on rude with my bluntness.
I struggled with empathy.
I locked down every emotion and went cold.

This is how I lived the first 10 years of adulthood.

I was given lesson after lesson
And yet I STILL stuffed it down and buried it.

No feeling.
Letting hurtful s**t hold you down was weakness.
And I was a doer.
I DID things.
Anything to keep my hands and mind busy.

Addictive behaviour.
Binge eating.
Binge drinking.
Workaholic.
Obsessive over goals.
Self destructive so I could prove I could put myself together.

Over and over
Lessons repeated.
Victim mindset activated.
And onward I’d go.

Fake it til you make it.

Until my 13 consecutive months of literal hell and heartbreak.

Trauma after trauma
Loss after loss
Heartbreak after heartbreak.

My big stack of compartmentalized emotions and traumas… came tumbling down.

And I had to feel thru it
I had to look at it in the face
I had to allow it to be what it was
I had to allow ME to be what I was on the inside.

Soft.
Gentle.
Kind.
Sensitive.
Heart full of love.

That ‘tough as nails’ label fu**ed off
And I let go.

And you know what?

I am THANKFUL.

Those of us with the biggest egos go through the hardest, darkest nights.

So that we can be broken right down to the rawness.

Release ourselves from the weight of our internal chains. Cause they… they are heavy.
Even when we choose to not look at them,
they are heavy.

We go thru the darkest nights so that we may break free.

This.